Home Is Where the Porn Is

 

I’m sitting here in Melbourne – on the floor – in the corner of my hostel room.

My roommates seem to think I’m missing a few screws, and I’m not sure they’re wrong.

I just went through a bag of Doritos and I’m on my second Sugar Free Red Bull.

I’ve been on this computer all day, changing locations so as not to seem like ‘that guy who’s on his computer all day.’ I figure each room is a different group, and each group is a completely separate ecosystem. If I can change location every few hours, each group will think they saw the isolated few hours I spend on the computer each day, and it’s unlikely that they’ll all get together and compare notes.

This establishes plausible deniability. Niiiiice.

Despite the friendly Aussie and Irish dudes bunked up near the door and the sassy Venezuelan model camped out above me, I’m feeling incredibly antisocial, putting in enough work not to be unfriendly – even going so far as sharing some wine and conversation with the model last night – but honestly all I want to do is go back downstairs to the far, dark side of the hostel’s bar where a wayward WiFi signal can usually be picked up or across the street to McDonald’s (the source of that signal).

I’ve been buying a lot of McDonald’s bottled water. God, I can’t stand their food.

This isn’t me and I know it, but I know the why I feel this way.

I’m homesick.

It’s not a traditional kind of homesick, however. My family is great, but I’m not homesick for their house in Missouri. Nor am I missing the townhouse I shared with my ex in Los Angeles before scrapping my lifestyle and starting over.

No, honestly I just miss the idea of home. A place I where I can unpack my clothing and store them in a closet. A place where I can leave my computer out all day. Where my devices are always charged. A place with a fridge I can put food in without having to write my name on it.

A place with an iron.

I want to be able to get up whenever and go to sleep whenever, without worrying about accidentally waking someone else in the room. I want to workout any time I please without feeling like I owe someone else an explanation. I want a place where I can walk around naked all day long without being arrested.

I’m talking naked yoga, people. Home is naked yoga.

This is what I miss. The last time I had it was in Buenos Aires, early in January. At that point I was living in a nice studio apartment in Recoleta, having fun and fancy-free. I’ve had a lot of adventures in the meantime, and I wouldn’t take them back for the world, but I need to recharge.

And it’s not enough to just stay with someone in a nice place. I’ve stayed at a lot of nice places since then, but it’s not the same. When it’s someone else’s home you’re always worried about moving anything or making a mess or getting too comfortable. You don’t usually unpack your stuff. Your stuff is still packed and you think you’re at home? Don’t kid yourself, buckaroo.

So that’s where I’m at in my head, leaning against the wall, listening to music on my headphones while my roommate chats away with his girlfriend and wonders what I’m doing on my computer. Porn, probably. He thinks I’m looking at porn.

Not here, roomie. This isn’t home. Just one more thing to miss about having a place to settle, even if briefly.

Home is where the porn is.

64 comments

  1. I feel ya Colin. I’ve been there and for the first time in a long time I feel like I have a home where I call the cat mine, get my mail there, invite people over for dinner parties, walk around in my underwear and just generally feel like it’s my home.

    Good luck finding your new home in NZ; in the meantime, don’t feel bad hiding in a dark corner for a while and grinding through some work. It’s not a bad thing.

  2. I feel ya Colin. I’ve been there and for the first time in a long time I feel like I have a home where I call the cat mine, get my mail there, invite people over for dinner parties, walk around in my underwear and just generally feel like it’s my home.

    Good luck finding your new home in NZ; in the meantime, don’t feel bad hiding in a dark corner for a while and grinding through some work. It’s not a bad thing.

  3. Cousin!! You just totally made my day with this post… HILARIOUS!! I love it. And I’m not trying to laugh at your expense- but I really do LOVE it when people can just be frickin’ real in their posts like this and let the world know what’s REALLY going on. It speaks to me. Even if it’s pretending to watch porn in a hostel somewhere on the other side of the world :-) Sending hugs and love and homey vibes!!! xoxoxox

  4. Cousin!! You just totally made my day with this post… HILARIOUS!! I love it. And I’m not trying to laugh at your expense- but I really do LOVE it when people can just be frickin’ real in their posts like this and let the world know what’s REALLY going on. It speaks to me. Even if it’s pretending to watch porn in a hostel somewhere on the other side of the world :-) Sending hugs and love and homey vibes!!! xoxoxox

  5. Naked yoga!!! How can you not miss the townhouse just a little when you think about naked yoga?

    Also, love it when you insert photos of me on your posts about porn. Then again, maybe I set myself up for that one when I started the comment with reminiscing about naked yoga.

  6. Naked yoga!!! How can you not miss the townhouse just a little when you think about naked yoga?

    Also, love it when you insert photos of me on your posts about porn. Then again, maybe I set myself up for that one when I started the comment with reminiscing about naked yoga.

  7. I know the feeling brother. I have been in your shoes, and felt my past coming back to smack me in the face when I read your post. In a good way. But again, I know the feeling.

    I had it while travelling through South America in 2000.
    My location, when I sat like you did yearning for ‘home’ (metaphysically speaking): Punta Arenas, Chile.

    Hang in there. You’ll get there sooner than you think. I know you will enjoy the ride in the meantime.

  8. I know the feeling brother. I have been in your shoes, and felt my past coming back to smack me in the face when I read your post. In a good way. But again, I know the feeling.

    I had it while travelling through South America in 2000.
    My location, when I sat like you did yearning for ‘home’ (metaphysically speaking): Punta Arenas, Chile.

    Hang in there. You’ll get there sooner than you think. I know you will enjoy the ride in the meantime.

  9. I totally agree! The past two years of my life have been quite unsettled for me.

    The first year was spent traveling and staying different places due to the convenience. While I had a townhouse of my own, I was rarely there for longer than a few days before heading out again. This life of living out of a bag got difficult. There were times when I would get out of my car with my luggage, knowing that I needed to go inside, do laundry, pack again, and sleep before leaving again. All in all it was a great experience where I learned a lot about myself.

    The past year I have been living in a new place as a roommate. While the bed has been the same every night, I feel as though I can’t really unpack my stuff and settle in. My bedroom is setup to be functional but the other areas of the house I use very little to minimize my impact. I used to love cooking but haven’t done it (beyond boiling water) in the past year. I used to get up and work out in the mornings but now I have people living downstairs that wouldn’t appreciate my jumping around in the early morning.

    Having a place where I can settle in and have the things I want around me (and be able to use them) is a dream I have. Hopefully it will be reality sometime soon.

  10. I totally agree! The past two years of my life have been quite unsettled for me.

    The first year was spent traveling and staying different places due to the convenience. While I had a townhouse of my own, I was rarely there for longer than a few days before heading out again. This life of living out of a bag got difficult. There were times when I would get out of my car with my luggage, knowing that I needed to go inside, do laundry, pack again, and sleep before leaving again. All in all it was a great experience where I learned a lot about myself.

    The past year I have been living in a new place as a roommate. While the bed has been the same every night, I feel as though I can’t really unpack my stuff and settle in. My bedroom is setup to be functional but the other areas of the house I use very little to minimize my impact. I used to love cooking but haven’t done it (beyond boiling water) in the past year. I used to get up and work out in the mornings but now I have people living downstairs that wouldn’t appreciate my jumping around in the early morning.

    Having a place where I can settle in and have the things I want around me (and be able to use them) is a dream I have. Hopefully it will be reality sometime soon.

  11. Putting away that feeling of home to travel has got to be a difficult thing.

    I’ve yet to really experience it, but I really am looking forward to all that goes with it, crap and all. I won’t know till I get there. And when I’m there I know dealing with it will be tough on me, but the whole point is that I’m there; I’ll be in a place, travelling, doing those adventures I imagine.

  12. Putting away that feeling of home to travel has got to be a difficult thing.

    I’ve yet to really experience it, but I really am looking forward to all that goes with it, crap and all. I won’t know till I get there. And when I’m there I know dealing with it will be tough on me, but the whole point is that I’m there; I’ll be in a place, travelling, doing those adventures I imagine.

  13. I’m wondering why Kristen is at the top of this post since you didn’t mention her at all in the article. I’ll take a few guesses that relate to your theme:
    - Kristen is looking at porn, or
    - Kristen, at home on the couch, is your idealistic experience
    I’m guessing that it’s the second one.

    With the lifestyle that you chose as the epitome of a free man it’s good to know that the direction that I have chosen (happily married and looking for a condo) has some desired aspects to it, even for a travel guru like yourself. I think that I appreciate this post more than any other in some way because it reminds me that there are gems in everyones chosen path.

  14. I’m wondering why Kristen is at the top of this post since you didn’t mention her at all in the article. I’ll take a few guesses that relate to your theme:
    - Kristen is looking at porn, or
    - Kristen, at home on the couch, is your idealistic experience
    I’m guessing that it’s the second one.

    With the lifestyle that you chose as the epitome of a free man it’s good to know that the direction that I have chosen (happily married and looking for a condo) has some desired aspects to it, even for a travel guru like yourself. I think that I appreciate this post more than any other in some way because it reminds me that there are gems in everyones chosen path.

  15. Hey Colin!
    Awesome to hear about your story so far! Not all change is better, sometimes things are a bit worse and other times they are better.

    All in all it will be good because it will help you determine what you really want in life and where you want to be and how you want to live. Enjoy the experience and if it really is so terrible, pack your stuff and head back to South America :)

    Hope things are going well, if you ever wanna talk feel free to add me on skype:
    doubledb

    Cheers
    Diggy

  16. Hey Colin!
    Awesome to hear about your story so far! Not all change is better, sometimes things are a bit worse and other times they are better.

    All in all it will be good because it will help you determine what you really want in life and where you want to be and how you want to live. Enjoy the experience and if it really is so terrible, pack your stuff and head back to South America :)

    Hope things are going well, if you ever wanna talk feel free to add me on skype:
    doubledb

    Cheers
    Diggy

  17. Hey, Man!
    I feel for you. Sometimes you just want a place where you can be on your own and relax. Thats why hostels really were never my cup of tea! I hope things get better man…

    Cheers!

  18. Hey, Man!
    I feel for you. Sometimes you just want a place where you can be on your own and relax. Thats why hostels really were never my cup of tea! I hope things get better man…

    Cheers!

  19. Oi Colin!

    I came back from Brazil not so long ago. In the hostel there was this long-bearded guy who spent whole nights with his laptop – despite all the girls around and the impressive heat -, far away in the 3rd story bunk. I also thought “porn.”

    But I get the feeling. Life on the road is fun – but it kills you after a while. I could never travel more than two months without setting down for at least a few weeks.

    But don’t give up. Find a cozy place, mail a few locals from couchsurfing to go out with and start to feel the city. It won’t be long till you feel like home again!

    cheers!

    mario

  20. Oi Colin!

    I came back from Brazil not so long ago. In the hostel there was this long-bearded guy who spent whole nights with his laptop – despite all the girls around and the impressive heat -, far away in the 3rd story bunk. I also thought “porn.”

    But I get the feeling. Life on the road is fun – but it kills you after a while. I could never travel more than two months without setting down for at least a few weeks.

    But don’t give up. Find a cozy place, mail a few locals from couchsurfing to go out with and start to feel the city. It won’t be long till you feel like home again!

    cheers!

    mario

  21. Oh come on, noticeable mindset creep. So you need a home in 1-2 countries on every continent. Global consistency or something. That should get you going in the right direction ;)

  22. Oh come on, noticeable mindset creep. So you need a home in 1-2 countries on every continent. Global consistency or something. That should get you going in the right direction ;)

  23. Hey Colin, We all have our up days, and we have our down days. Sometimes it may seem the down days won’t come to an end. Don’t worry my friend, I promise, they will.

    Something I do even when things aren’t going right is to give thanks. No matter what, there’s always plenty to be thankful for. And it’s OK to get down. That’s life.

  24. Hey Colin, We all have our up days, and we have our down days. Sometimes it may seem the down days won’t come to an end. Don’t worry my friend, I promise, they will.

    Something I do even when things aren’t going right is to give thanks. No matter what, there’s always plenty to be thankful for. And it’s OK to get down. That’s life.

  25. And here I was thinking how nice it would be to travel/work like you do, all the while sitting in my boxers at home (no porn, I promise).

    Guess the grass is always greener on the other side, though Im still thinking that it is ACTUALLY greener on your side!

  26. And here I was thinking how nice it would be to travel/work like you do, all the while sitting in my boxers at home (no porn, I promise).

    Guess the grass is always greener on the other side, though Im still thinking that it is ACTUALLY greener on your side!

  27. so wait, you do naked yoga!?? O_o

    i know just how you feel though. this nomad lifestyle makes me homesick for “home” a LOT. is it bad that when my family gave me a headset for the work i’m going to be doing soon my first thought was: i can finally watch porn with audio!

    haha.

  28. so wait, you do naked yoga!?? O_o

    i know just how you feel though. this nomad lifestyle makes me homesick for “home” a LOT. is it bad that when my family gave me a headset for the work i’m going to be doing soon my first thought was: i can finally watch porn with audio!

    haha.

  29. I hear ya! This is such an awful feeling when you’re travelling because you say to yourself that you ought to be THRILLED that you’re off seeing the world, that you’re free and doing all the things you’ve dreamed about….but then you just want something normal, like ironing, and not only do you feel crap about not having a place that’s your own but slightly guilty that you’re being ungrateful for the travel experience you’re having.

    Never mind Colin, it’s totally normal (I think….or at least I hope it is because I’ve been there A LOT this past year). This too shall pass. Next time you have a big basket of shirts to iron you’ll be wishing you were back with the hot model and the bottle of wine :)

  30. I hear ya! This is such an awful feeling when you’re travelling because you say to yourself that you ought to be THRILLED that you’re off seeing the world, that you’re free and doing all the things you’ve dreamed about….but then you just want something normal, like ironing, and not only do you feel crap about not having a place that’s your own but slightly guilty that you’re being ungrateful for the travel experience you’re having.

    Never mind Colin, it’s totally normal (I think….or at least I hope it is because I’ve been there A LOT this past year). This too shall pass. Next time you have a big basket of shirts to iron you’ll be wishing you were back with the hot model and the bottle of wine :)

  31. there is no place like home, that is for sure.

    maybe some day you can set up a sort of ‘HQ’ for yourself in your favorite town that you can go to take time and recharge. it is very important for your mind to have a home you can go to even if you are living mobile.

    one big advantage you have as a person with no concrete home like most people is that you do not go into routines. for instance it’s very hard for me to accomplish work efficiently at home because it’s so comfortable that it’s easy to become distracted or so relaxed that you just want to kick back instead of work. this effects the quality of your designs no question.

  32. there is no place like home, that is for sure.

    maybe some day you can set up a sort of ‘HQ’ for yourself in your favorite town that you can go to take time and recharge. it is very important for your mind to have a home you can go to even if you are living mobile.

    one big advantage you have as a person with no concrete home like most people is that you do not go into routines. for instance it’s very hard for me to accomplish work efficiently at home because it’s so comfortable that it’s easy to become distracted or so relaxed that you just want to kick back instead of work. this effects the quality of your designs no question.

  33. This is why my readers are the best readers :)

    @Carl: Thanks buddy! I think I needed the excuse..I’m definitely the kind of person who feels guilty if he’s not doing something at all times. Still working on that whole ‘relaxation’ thing I keep hearing about.

    @jody: Haha, well thanks for the kind words, hugs and vibes (horny or otherwise)!

    @Kristin: It’s true, maybe I do miss it a little bit. Mostly for the naked yoga. And I thought you were a perfect fit for this post, seeing as how you are a renowned lover of porn and in that picture you were sick..like homesick? Get it? Get it?

    @Gianpaolo: Thanks brother, it’s always good to know I’m not crazy when I’m in that kind of mood!

    @Jeremy: I hope it happens for you soon, buddy. I know exactly what you mean with roommates, too…that’s how I feel living with someone, be it a girlfriend or a hostel. It’s hard just to be YOU, no matter how much you try to make it so.

    @teevee: The devil’s in the details, as the kids say (do they? I need to ask some kids before I make these blanket statements).

    @Tim: I’ll tell you man, this lifestyle is great, despite the lumps. There are definitely moments when you are feeling like all you want is the standard lifestyle where things are more predictable, but 99% of the time it’s bright, sunshiny days (metaphorically).

    @Whitney: I’m nomadic because I’m trying to learn about the world, learn about myself, try out many lifestyle experiments that wouldn’t be practical staying in the same place, etc. Honestly, I wanted to post this because this feeling DOES happen, but it’s very seldom. A quick pick-me-up in a home-like situation for a week and then I’m ready to go again!

    @Geoffrey: Haha, well, actually it was because it’s funny when Kristin looks at porn (and she’s got the nymphish look that makes it look like she’s always doing something naughty) and because she looks sick (homesick? ha!). You do still make a very valid point, though, because you and I have chosen totally opposite paths in life, and I think both have very desirable aspects. I guess I’ll just have to come back and have some of your cooking next time I’m in town, and you’ll have to come visit me wherever I’m at sometime and we’ll share what we can from each other’s lifestyle!

    @Diggy: Thanks for the outreach, Diggy! Really appreciate it brother!

    @Andrew: Thanks buddy! Already better, actually…this article was written a few weeks ago, actually :)

    @Mario: Great idea with the Couchsurfers..for some reason I never think to contact anyone through them when I move to a new place. I’ve found my stride again, thankfully, but I’ll definitely keep it in mind next time I’m feeling a bit homesick!

    @theorg: That’s the spirit! Solve the problem, don’t accept it. Love. It!

    @Mike: That’s actually my approach, too. When I realize that I’m just down in the dumps, I’ll think, well geez, what a wonderful life I have! There’s nothing to complain about, and any situation I find myself in at this point I can get myself out of with just a little effort. Nice!

    @vikingabroad: Ha, well, I would still recommend trying it if you like. It’s mostly super-green on this side, it’s just every once in a while you find a weed you need to pull!

    @floreta: Uh huh! Why am I not surprised that that’s the first thing you thought? Hahaha, well done!

    @Jamie: OMG, you just rocked my world.

    @Tresna: Ah, this too shall pass, I love that. Being a bit of a Stoic, I find myself thinking that anytime I come across a really bad situation. I know I’ll come out stronger for it. All the same, wanted to make it clear to the folks who read this blog that it’s not all chocolate and sunshine while traveling!

    @Zachary: I’m thinking many HQ’s…a whole constellation of them all across the map! It’s true what you say about routines…really hard to keep a solid workout plan, for example. I’m LOVING that I finally have a gym again after all this time. It’s the simple stuff that makes a place feel home-like. Also: that’s Miss Kristin Norris in the photo. Go check out her blog!

  34. This is why my readers are the best readers :)

    @Carl: Thanks buddy! I think I needed the excuse..I’m definitely the kind of person who feels guilty if he’s not doing something at all times. Still working on that whole ‘relaxation’ thing I keep hearing about.

    @jody: Haha, well thanks for the kind words, hugs and vibes (horny or otherwise)!

    @Kristin: It’s true, maybe I do miss it a little bit. Mostly for the naked yoga. And I thought you were a perfect fit for this post, seeing as how you are a renowned lover of porn and in that picture you were sick..like homesick? Get it? Get it?

    @Gianpaolo: Thanks brother, it’s always good to know I’m not crazy when I’m in that kind of mood!

    @Jeremy: I hope it happens for you soon, buddy. I know exactly what you mean with roommates, too…that’s how I feel living with someone, be it a girlfriend or a hostel. It’s hard just to be YOU, no matter how much you try to make it so.

    @teevee: The devil’s in the details, as the kids say (do they? I need to ask some kids before I make these blanket statements).

    @Tim: I’ll tell you man, this lifestyle is great, despite the lumps. There are definitely moments when you are feeling like all you want is the standard lifestyle where things are more predictable, but 99% of the time it’s bright, sunshiny days (metaphorically).

    @Whitney: I’m nomadic because I’m trying to learn about the world, learn about myself, try out many lifestyle experiments that wouldn’t be practical staying in the same place, etc. Honestly, I wanted to post this because this feeling DOES happen, but it’s very seldom. A quick pick-me-up in a home-like situation for a week and then I’m ready to go again!

    @Geoffrey: Haha, well, actually it was because it’s funny when Kristin looks at porn (and she’s got the nymphish look that makes it look like she’s always doing something naughty) and because she looks sick (homesick? ha!). You do still make a very valid point, though, because you and I have chosen totally opposite paths in life, and I think both have very desirable aspects. I guess I’ll just have to come back and have some of your cooking next time I’m in town, and you’ll have to come visit me wherever I’m at sometime and we’ll share what we can from each other’s lifestyle!

    @Diggy: Thanks for the outreach, Diggy! Really appreciate it brother!

    @Andrew: Thanks buddy! Already better, actually…this article was written a few weeks ago, actually :)

    @Mario: Great idea with the Couchsurfers..for some reason I never think to contact anyone through them when I move to a new place. I’ve found my stride again, thankfully, but I’ll definitely keep it in mind next time I’m feeling a bit homesick!

    @theorg: That’s the spirit! Solve the problem, don’t accept it. Love. It!

    @Mike: That’s actually my approach, too. When I realize that I’m just down in the dumps, I’ll think, well geez, what a wonderful life I have! There’s nothing to complain about, and any situation I find myself in at this point I can get myself out of with just a little effort. Nice!

    @vikingabroad: Ha, well, I would still recommend trying it if you like. It’s mostly super-green on this side, it’s just every once in a while you find a weed you need to pull!

    @floreta: Uh huh! Why am I not surprised that that’s the first thing you thought? Hahaha, well done!

    @Jamie: OMG, you just rocked my world.

    @Tresna: Ah, this too shall pass, I love that. Being a bit of a Stoic, I find myself thinking that anytime I come across a really bad situation. I know I’ll come out stronger for it. All the same, wanted to make it clear to the folks who read this blog that it’s not all chocolate and sunshine while traveling!

    @Zachary: I’m thinking many HQ’s…a whole constellation of them all across the map! It’s true what you say about routines…really hard to keep a solid workout plan, for example. I’m LOVING that I finally have a gym again after all this time. It’s the simple stuff that makes a place feel home-like. Also: that’s Miss Kristin Norris in the photo. Go check out her blog!

  35. Hey Colin
    Been sitting at Urban Central bar edge hunting that wifi myself. Start of my trip in Australia last August, sometimes going to the infamous yellow arches across the street for setting up interviews and making contacts in Australia!
    I grew tired of hostels but never missed the ironing!

    Looking forward to your experiences in NZ. Compare with Australia (if you can)

    All the best,

    California (in Stockholm)

  36. Hey Colin
    Been sitting at Urban Central bar edge hunting that wifi myself. Start of my trip in Australia last August, sometimes going to the infamous yellow arches across the street for setting up interviews and making contacts in Australia!
    I grew tired of hostels but never missed the ironing!

    Looking forward to your experiences in NZ. Compare with Australia (if you can)

    All the best,

    California (in Stockholm)

  37. I hear you Colin,

    Travel sounds really glamorous and exciting until you start doing it all the time. A permanent home base with your private things is very important. The problem is choosing where that place should be.

  38. I hear you Colin,

    Travel sounds really glamorous and exciting until you start doing it all the time. A permanent home base with your private things is very important. The problem is choosing where that place should be.

  39. Hey buddy,

    Long time listener, first time caller. Fascinating post, because I think you’ve said what a lot of us feel when we’re on the road for a long time.

    I’m just a bit sorry you’ve got homesick in my beautiful home town – how I wish I was there now! Head back down to Degreaves Street or St Kilda and have a coffee for me as you watch the world go by. It is people like you that continue to inspire me, to hopefully continue to inspire others also.

    Cheers,

    H.

  40. Hey buddy,

    Long time listener, first time caller. Fascinating post, because I think you’ve said what a lot of us feel when we’re on the road for a long time.

    I’m just a bit sorry you’ve got homesick in my beautiful home town – how I wish I was there now! Head back down to Degreaves Street or St Kilda and have a coffee for me as you watch the world go by. It is people like you that continue to inspire me, to hopefully continue to inspire others also.

    Cheers,

    H.

  41. Naked yoga, will have to tell the peeps at my yoga studio…might have to add a new class ;-)

  42. Naked yoga, will have to tell the peeps at my yoga studio…might have to add a new class ;-)

  43. Oh hello. Remember the project I told you about at the Scratcher all those weeks ago? This post sums up my exact fear. After an entire year of it, I would go insane not having a real home.

  44. Oh hello. Remember the project I told you about at the Scratcher all those weeks ago? This post sums up my exact fear. After an entire year of it, I would go insane not having a real home.

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  46. Colin,

    I feel you; I’ve been living similarly for the past three years. Here’s what sustains me: It wouldn’t be a journey if I didn’t feel this way. Keep moving until your journey’s complete. You’ll absolutely know when that happens.

    Best regards,
    /carlos

  47. Colin,

    I feel you; I’ve been living similarly for the past three years. Here’s what sustains me: It wouldn’t be a journey if I didn’t feel this way. Keep moving until your journey’s complete. You’ll absolutely know when that happens.

    Best regards,
    /carlos

  48. Sometimes you just need to recharge don’t you? I had exactly this feeling when I was travelling in Australia. It didn’t take away from the awesome times I had travelling but like everything in life there is two sides to the coin and I for one need that recharge time now and then and take a break from the daily challenges of not having a base.

  49. Sometimes you just need to recharge don’t you? I had exactly this feeling when I was travelling in Australia. It didn’t take away from the awesome times I had travelling but like everything in life there is two sides to the coin and I for one need that recharge time now and then and take a break from the daily challenges of not having a base.

  50. Currently I’m living in an apartment by myself. You’ve just given me a number of things to remember to be grateful for. I love being able to do yoga anytime I want with or without clothing. Thanks for the post.

  51. Even having roomates (whom I’m not intimate with) seems like I’m not “home.” I like having my own apartment. I’m busting my ass so I can make enough money to save up and continue to pay for a one bedroom apartment or studio. I want it to be sparcly furnished, barely anything in it that I don’t use anyday and I also want to be able to go adopt a dog, play with it, take it for walks as I work from my home computer desk and wait for my girlfriend to get out of work and cook her dinner. In my space that I share with 2 relative strangers, I feel like I am not home. Great post Colin. I feel you on this one.

  52. love your honesty. brill. i wanted to say- throughout reading the post- come hang out here! but of course..it’s not your place! i’m wishing you something cozy and homey in your very near future.

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  54. Man I can totally relate to this post. I know its real old but I have only been reading you for a few months so I am going back through your old posts. I have been in China for almost a year now and this post hit it dead on the head how I feel. love the writing man can’t wait for your ebook.

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