I’m Totally Holding Back

 

Have you ever worked out with weighted arm- or leg-bands?

That’s how I feel sometimes, but with life in general, not with working out in particular. And it’s intentional.

There are things I want to do – that I will do – but I’m holding back. Biding my time. Waiting for the right moment.

Conventional non-conventional thinking (what you’ll read on blogs and in inspirational books) says that I should drop everything and plow forward recklessly. Don’t think, feel. Don’t wait, jump.

Hell, I’ve given this same advice. In a lot of cases, and for a lot of people, it’s the best tip you can give. If you’re afraid to fail or try new things or scared of change or the like, not giving your thought process a chance to catch up with your scary ambitions is smart, and could very well change your life dramatically (and hopefully for the better).

But I’m not afraid to fail. I like trying new things. I thrive on change.

For me what’s difficult is pacing myself. Regulating. Holding back.

And that’s what I’m doing right now. People ask me what I’m up to and I’ll list off a string of current projects and goals, but I’ve got more. A whole lot more, actually, some that would be just for kicks and some that could be game-changers. I want to pursue them all, and with gusto.

And I intend to, just not right at this moment.

Life is short and you have to be ambitious if you want to fit everything into those hundred-or-so years, but if you keep your eyes tunnel-focused on that next goal, you won’t be able to enjoy the rewards of the last goal you reached, and the one before that.

Life is just one victory horizon after another and it’s important to slow down sometimes to enjoy the view.

8 comments

  1. Good to slow down, take a breather, enjoy what’s in for you now. :)

    What’s the thing that ya holding back (I see the word “all” in the 4th last paragraph) on Colin?

  2. Wow – couldn’t have said it better myself. I think you’ve taken the works “But I’m not afraid to fail. I like trying new things. I thrive on change.” right out of my mouth. This is a great way for those of us live for a challenge to approach a situation a bit more diplomatically & put some thought into what we are doing. Thanks for the post!

  3. I’m always impressed and astounded by folks who can keep track of more than three projects simultaneously. I’ve found that if I hold back just a little bit, I get more forward progress. Well written! :)

  4. I’m always impressed and astounded by folks who can keep track of more than three projects simultaneously. I’ve found that if I hold back just a little bit, I get more forward progress. Well written! :)

  5. Robert M. Pirsig wrote in Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance, “To live only for some future goal is shallow. It’s the sides of the mountain which sustain life, not the top. Here’s where things grow.”

    And here’s where we grow.

    If the pursuit of anything and everything that’s lying heavy on your heart and mind allows you to be happier, healthier and freer, by all means! Much like James Franco who is seen as an over-active person with one too many things on his plate (as the critics put it), you remind me of an incredibly enthusiastic person who absolutely loves life and all it has to offer. And there’s nothing wrong with that at all. In fact, more people ought to live life like that: vicariously.

    You’re not just trying to reach the top, though if that’s a consequence of your actions, then let it be. But you’re trying to live, to grow, to learn, to love, to experience.

    Life is a beautiful thing, isn’t it, my friend?

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